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Kirbie~ memee..
in short, another reason why im not very opened, thinking too much again. scoring high, was 'charismatic' 49/60. meaning, a personality that is outgoing and enthusiastic. LOVE to be arnd ppl, motivate others, communicate and persuade others~ but of course this is survey baised.. i doubt and question myself now. because, i AM a 'considerate' personality WANTING TO BE a CHARISMATIC personality, however AM NOT one of them. i DO LOVE being arnd ppl, but somehow i cant communicate with them, as i said i think too much, i weigh out the pros and cons so much, so afraid to make the slightest mistakes. the flaws i wld make, afraid ppl wld judge negatively abt me! just reading a paragraph of an article to my fellow classmates makes me nervous alr.. my voice wld break, my hands wld tremble, my face wld blush red hot. [if you all had alr noticed]. in short, im paranoid and i lack the confidence~ and thats what ive been trying to work at for the past year. @_@ haiz.. i feel down, left out, empty within with this lack of enthusiasm, vivaciousness? i wanna be normal at least, the sociable-ness... i wanna STOP thinking so much, and think simpler, complicated thoughts never fail to fill my mind~ when will i ever change?~
Name : Geraint.aka.kirbie
Age : 16!! =P
Gender : male
Birthday : 23 May 1993
Email add : bonlesschickeshit@hotmail.com
Sec school : k.c.p.s.s
Pri school : k.c.p.p.s
plays the drums.
PASSIONATE abt arts n sports.
Memee Hates
Detest :
1.irritating ppl (like me)
2.nerds
3.bengs&lians
4.construction works under my block
5.stupid smelly HAZE
6.NEVER ENDING holidays
7.shooting!?!?
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2.friends
3.ALL my loved ones~ (:
4.Linkinpark!!!
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joey
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junhao
leekuang
louis
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kristy
manda
meHh
mich
no-kia
nurul
phoebe
prawncracker
roy
ridz
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staying at home just to stone, rot, sleep, rot, stone.
tablets,syrup and water made up 70% of my pathetic diet.
falling sick really sucks! =(
but im really grateful to know that most of my friends really do care abt me when im sick, it really cheers me up! =D
just their DIAMOND smiles, even the serious expressions they wear when they're on they're work,that really brightened up my heavy headed day~ x.x i missed them sooooooooo much WORXZXZXXXZ
so anws,
had nationals today,
didnt wanna go cos i was sick..
and it wasnt just like... a minor flu or cough or sorethroat or just a slight on off fever..
ITS ALL OF THEM, and none of the symptoms are minor! =(
had throat infection, leading to cough, flu then fever!
my fever once went up to 39.6deg - -
however, bryan was the supposed reserve, he was suppose to take my place..
however, he too fell sick.. - - same symtoms as me!
there were only 2shooters left, abel and junhui, and you need 3 shooters to form a team..
after much much much much persuasion, madam teo eventually kinda.. 'forced me into shooting for the competition..' at that moment i kept complaining, to myself at least.. ~_~
i was like 'how can she be so heartless! im sick leh..' stupid..
but i didnt regret NOT shooting for this nationals..
it was my last competition ever!
my last nationals
my last 60shots
my last time gona represent a sch for shooting - -
forever,
abel and junhui shot the same detail, and i was shooting the nxt detail after them..
abel hit a below par peformances,
569/600, 9.4 avg
junhui shot an outstanding 558!
9.3avg.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
it was my turn~
the pressure was on!
oh yar ms chng also came down to cheer me on!
'just try your best!' coach teddy, coach olivia and ms chng, gladys all said the same thing.. lols
they all knew i was sick, so they didnt expect much,
but my aim was a 560, 9.4avg.. like how i did during trainings a week ago.. x.x
my 1st series was on track. 94.
my 2nd shot a few 8s here and there.. 88.
my 3rd, made up for the 88, a 91.
my 4th, due to stupid noisy children, ... i accidentally shot one on the grnd, 10point deduction, missed the whole card! 82! D:
after missing that shot i gave up hitting my 560 target..
it was already impossible~
i just wanted to shoot my last 20shots with n0 regrets..
it was my LAST 20SHOTS for my entire life! i was gona shoot for the rest of my entire life with an air rifle, in nationals..
so anws i shot a 94 and a 96 for my last 20shots.. thats... 10shots on the 9 and another 10shots on the 10!
and scored a 545 in total! whoo! , 9avg
not bad for a heavily illed old man!
its been almost more than a year im down with a fever.. =(
haiz...
having cough, flu and sorethroat too.. @_@ pure madness lols
im suppose to shoot the SSA Monthly shoot today, monthly practice competition..
which was supposedly gona be my personal best, had been training 3-4times a week.. ~_~
my seriesS hit 95 to 96 during during the trainings..
and im shooting for the nationals this coming tuesday.. ~_~
haiz.. what can i do~ o.o
just dowanna miss sch tmr.. every lesson, so precious to lose.. D:
ive been doing somemore art pieces~
enjoy!
this thing's called a blue minch..
its a guy just so you know, and its like a mermaid..
some marine fantasy thingy..
lao wanted me to add the lightning shown in the pic..
& this one, its only my second painting in my ENTIRE life.. i swear.
i just used my colourpencil blending techiniques..
suddenly, home felt like heaven,
that once ordinary bed, now felt so tempting to lie on.
too bad i had to shower first, after a... 16hrs-day.. = =!?
we had tchouk ball interclass games after sch!
express classes kept complaining, whining, that it was a normal acad's cca..
it wasnt a very fair game.
summore those sec4 normal acad pupils last year that retained in normal classes, had another YEAR of experience..
there wasnt much 'justice'..
oh yar.. and most of the umpires are normal acad coaches..
diffinately there will be some biasness..
we gathered at the concourse before the matches and took a draw.
it was a grp stage then knockout stage thingy [ like soccer],
the team winning the game gets 3points,
draw,2points
and 1 point for a lost.
irfan was the one who drew the lots.
there were 4normal acad classes
and 6express classes..
divided into 2grps of 5,
the 2top classes of the grp moves on to the semi finals..
we had joy,praise,grace and patience!
a veryvery tough grp.
the matches were held in the paradesquare, the whole paradesquare for 1game, 5mins per game..
we were playing at the 3rd game..
and were versusing joy~
we all had massive confidence of winning this match..
and it was probably the only match we could win actually..
as the previous game ended, it was our turn!
my heart was pounding,
wasnt very used to being in the centre of attention of that many spectators~
after a 'siccors paper stone' to whose gona start the ball first,
we finally started our very first game..
leekuang's the middle man and he kept passing the ball to me, totally out of the plan we had in p.e just hrs ago.. as yinghui was SUPPOSED to be the middle man.
we only paved 2routes when we practiced during p.e..
yinghui to jason, jason to kotaro, kotaro to me. and i was suppose to be the shooter.
or yinghui to jason, jason to me, me to kotaro.
so anws, leekuang passed the ball to me straight away, i had to pass to kotaro,
he shot missed the WHOLE target, immediately losing a point unnecessaryly. ~_~
another careless mistake made was when,
leekuang threw the ball to irfan at the other side..
irfan wanted to 'scrape' but hit the frame and bounced back to him.. ~_~
i only shot once, not sure i rmbed whether i scored..
anws, the only game that we thought we shld have won, was dashed - - ..
6-4..
even heard one of the NA ppl shouting..'hahaa i want that game!'
anws, after losing to joy, we were devastated..
i told leekuang the change of plans, stick to that jason kotaro me technique~
it was our turn again after a 30min rest as the other teams played..
normal acad classes were dominating the games.. D:
we were vsing 4praise now.
one of the hardest to defeat.
our confidence were low..
but soared high after taking a 3-0 lead.. (:
i was still nervous, but whenever i got the ball i had this sudden adrenaline rush..
& that was the start of my shooting spree~ :D
but the adrenaline really rocketed through my body whenever a a 4praise shooter shoots the ball, esp ahmad!
because i knew ahmad's shot was gona be powerful and low..
before i knew it, i was volleying the ball up right away, adrenaline really helped my reaction time..
the ball rocketed throught the sky, i didnt know how hard i hit the ball, i only had this mentallity to save truth's butt!
jason caught it thankfully, and the game went on..
one by one, the shots they fire, i was catching them, one by one..
the balls were fast, yet the adrenaline i had seemed to slow it down.
my heart was flying, adrenaline was on my side, me & my team's and confidence grew lightning fast~
every ball they shot was lethal.. as they started to come back up, 6-6, attacking from our weaker side, the opposite end.
i knew if we drew or lost this match, it was practically game over..
7-6, 8-6! we were trailing further ahead. phew~
then the shot that wld almost devastate us all~
time was running out..
if ahmad scored it wld be 8-7, a morale booster for them.
leon backpassed to ahmad again..
immediately, i lined up beside kotaro, knees bent low, hands in the volleying shape.
there he goes, the ball shot right straight to me..
it was slower than i expected it wld be, more catchable than i expected it wld be...
but i just volleyed it up anw..
jason ran to catch it.. haha
he passed to the opposite side and alex scored!! whoo!
winning the game 9-6.. (:
a sweet victory.
dont wish to brag but, almost everybody thought the 'star' in that game, i think the whole team deserved MORE credit..
i wld have kept on shooting if leekuang didnt stuck to the plan..
jason was awesome in catching my crazy volleys..
kotaro with his eye contacts.
we won 4grace, 5-10 the nxt game..
another normal acad class, this time, it was the game that the WHOLE team really played tgt and played well..
each of them did their part.
the scoring of our team's both opposite sides were even.
nxt, 4patience..
vsing our ex class mates,
the game was tight.
1-0,1-1,2-1,2-2 that tight!
alex soh and nicholas scrape shots caught chinteck alexphoon irfan's side off guard..
i cldnt help them as i had to take on hanesh on the opposite side..
my adrenaline from the previous 2games had went down, tiredness set in..
a win in this match wld set us through to the semi's!
hanesh shots were rock hard.
and i made quite a few mistakes BY volleying the ball higher..
my teammates cld have caught those shots if i hadnt lift them higher..
hanesh caught most of my shots too,
expected from his 4years goal-keeping experience~ - -
we lost 7-8 in the end..
a very dangerous position to be in.
but patience had a game in hand, if they won praise or drew with them, we wld have been through to the semis with patience, knocking both normal acad classes that were in our grp out! :D
there was belief for the first time that we wld win this tchouk ball competition..
however, patience lost 9-10 a last minute goal that dashed our hopes! x.x
it was insane..
anws, we exceeded ppl's expectations of our class, even our own expectations!
winning 2normal acad classes, back to back, thrashing them!
for that, it was job well done for the whole team!!! whoo!
the girls made it to the semifinals,
but lost the 3rd place position and finished 4th..
i felt they were excellent!
playing with them during the p.e lesson we had before the games, really kinda.. let us down.. hahah..
but really.. getting to play the semi's was beyond excellent!! =D
for the boys,
patience, the only express class in the semi's finished 3rd!
agape got 2nd
and hope was 1st.
for the girls,
grace had 3rd,
peace 2nd
and love 1st.
though we didnt win any medals, we proved ourselves a strong-willed team~ =P
a stronger-willed class! 4truth all the way! whoo!
'regret is a commonly used term here'
'spend your time wisely'
those were some of those precious words flowing through my head after the drug talk during mrning assembly just now.
hmm.. sure im not a drug a addict, nor will i ever be one.
but, those words really motivated me to trying to increase the productivity of my days. [not like it has been so packed alr..]
still, procrastination, my random deep string thoughts, my short attention span gets the shit out of me. D:<
how much i hate not being so absorbent, attentive during class at times.. =(
cos i knew after the day, i wld REGRET not listening in class doing my homwrk at home - -.
ppl finishing no more than an hr for the math papers during SRPs,
which i wld take at least 2hrs really frustrates me.
they reflect like glass mirrors how slow, how unfocused i can be, how weak-minded am i, to so easily give up on those BRAIN-MELTING-qns. - -
but nothing compares to what those drug offenders did to their lives.
one lost his arm,
the other joined a gang and wasted his youth,
and part of their lives.
i dont want to lose mine!! D:
however,
as they turned away, with mr ten, walking them off, a sense of guilt and sympathy swept through my veins.
how fortunate the problems i face now, feels so... tiny it seemed when i put myself in their worn, tattered shoes..
its the sch holis and im still damn busy!!!
busier than when there was school, without the holidays! ..
paid 170$ and 4 afternoons of mental pain for MYOB.
and ive realised being and Accountant/Clerk is definately, NOT my job.
MYOB, Mind Your Own Buisness is some accounting course thingy,
optional to signup..
why i paid the 4afternoons and 170$!??!?
because mrs tang said 'if you get the cert, you can get a job in an aircon room, behind a computer instead of working at those fastfood places during the sch holis nxt time..'
anws, i just hope i pass the MYOB test, if not i wasted 170$ and 8hrsx4days=32hours of my life!!!
and because i attended MYOB, i cldnt go for trainings, i had to pay 68$ to shoot at safra from 7pm-9pm on wednesday and thursday, just insane!!
lucky mrs teo's paying 30$ alr.. but i still have to pay 38$~
i thnk shes forgotten abt it though.. hahaha dont remind her ar! D:
lucky gladys accompanied me to safra too.. or i wld have been stoning there, no idea what i was i suppose to do..
nationals coming up nxt week,
what im more worried now is the lessons/time missed!!! cos we're shooting at the 26th.. wth.. thursday.. most probably during sch hrs!
andandand of course the stepping down part after nationals~ =(
i'll miss my fellow shooters~ veryvery much~ D':
haha my fan club~ - -
but theres always a brighter side to things lur.. haha
i got to miss chinese mock exam!! WHOO!
hmm, sch 'holidays' passed without even having the feeling of i was in them'
oh yar! some random 4truth vids taken during class retreat!
roy and cass~
sang in the bus, on our way back from vivo! whoo!
Fallforyou by 4truth09!
rmb to catch 'TheGuysOnTheBus' video in our 4truth09channel!!
im too psed to post it up here~ lols
found out that detailing for each day of the camp is TOO time consuming..
and boring too.. lols..
so im just gona skip to the main highlights of the camp!
first of all..
movie screening..
its after i read alicia's and gracia's posts then i realised that our class and 4faith were the ones who were suppose to have movie screenings/marathons during the first night.
we all were following our own class schedule.
so it was 9pm, the first night.
many diff classes were streaming into the movie screening area, which they were by right, NOT SUPPOSED TO.
and BY THE WAYS,
we had already gathered 2hours in the screening area before them, as we left vivo earlier, and the whole class had alr decided on what show we wanna watch.
the girls rejcted horror immediately, deciding to go with comedy instead.
however, as the classes came in one by one, which they were NOT SUPPOSED TO, except 4faith, we ALL had conflicts on which movie we wanted to watch..
the noise was almost unbearable.
it was unagreeable.
the class 'leaders' then went up to the 'trainer-videoDJ'
then some girls were like 'who wants horror raise up your hand!'
almost 3/4 of the cohort wanted horror.
they raised their hands straight up, with sly grins stickered on their faces..
so 4truth, who were supposed to be watching what we wanted, were chased out from their own 'scheduled movie screening', because, our class had already decided on comedy, and most of the classes wanted horror. wtf
personally, i would have gone for horror instead of comedy, BUT i felt that the bond between us was stronger and deserved to be held on to rather than a stupid movie.
i thnk most of 4truth thought that way, thats why we walked out together, as a class..
the trainer then told us to watch comedy in another screening area,
the movie tropic thunder was playing.
but the comical thing was,
after sawIV was played, more and more JOKERS left the room.. - -
mrs dorathy goh wanted us to go back into the bigger screening area where the horror movie was allegly playing, and wanted the horror movie to be screened in this smaller area.
she said there were lesser ppl in horror movie now. - -
retarded they were, putting a brave front to all. 'who wants horror?' 'ME!!MEE!!' - - they werent even suppose to be watching a movie in the first place, yet they 'stole' our area, wasted our time. the whole thing was real garbbage.
we got the last laugh in the end, humiliated were themselves, i still rmbed some of those cheeky grins they gave us.. hahaha
losers.
it was GREAT! VERYVERY ENJOYABLE!!! =D
we were staying in a prison camp in sembawang, literally. - - btws.
anws, after a debrief from the head trainer,
we were assigned to our specific bunks.
the facilities in the camp were a TOTAL dissapointment.
i mean for a price of 90$ for a 3days 2nights stay, i expected a bigger bed and a larger lavatory. - -
the bunks were just rows and collumns of double decker beds..
i took the upperdeck with kotora slping beside me.
anws, we gathered, then set off for sentosa! whoot!
we were the 'first team to arrive'[amazing race] to Palawan beach! ^^
we cld choose which spot we wanted.
the sun was strong and brilliant.
white fat popcorn clouds floated in the blue sky.
the weather was on our side. for now at least.
we found some shade under some palm trees, but we decided to change to a cooler spot, at the very end of the beach where trees forested with more density.
mrs tay and ms yeo were our teacher incharge! (:
we gathered and picnic-ed on a big slab of concrete.
the guys ate first as the girls changed into their tops/shorts O.<>
whoo!
they say your personality style should determine your career.
we were given 8mins to do a survey,
that wld determine our personality,
whether we are...
1.commanding
2.charismatic
3.considerate
4.correct
we all have these 4 personalities,
i'll start from the least personality i have.
26/60 for commanding,
not surprising at all, im so.. indecisive.
it had always been an obstacle in my life.
just choosing what to order food from a stall takes me 10mins. = =
very far from direct, agressive and demanding too..
nxt was 'considerate' 33/60
steady, and stable,
meaning, to mediate problems under presure, and to study the situation and be cautious..
perfect description of my 'serious' self.. =D
but sometimes too overlycautious..
tend to weight the pros and cons of situations almost too many times..
the reason why im so.. shy, closed.
i think too much.
then it was 'Correct' 39/60
meaning, i tend to gather and evaluate stuff..
thinking conscientiously and correct..
evaluating the pros and cons, trying to do the right stuff instead of the wrong, so afraid of making mistakes, overly cautious~
tried to skip shooting today, failed- -
i have no idea why the sec1s LOVE taking pictures..
and ESP pictures of me!?!?
ahhaha
whoo! 'the geraint fan club!'
or maybe im just their source of entertainment~ hmm~ [child psychology~]
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whoo! class retreat tmr!
(: yay?
we're going to sentosa on the first day,
doing beach activities!
reallyreally hope it doesnt rain!
cos we didnt planned for wet whether activities~
hahahah
heard that if it rains,
4love wld be doing cross dressing.. what the heck!?
on the spot? and where? o.o
anws, we'll be frisbeeing, beach soccer/volleyball/basketball, twistering too! =D
2nd day's boring though,
they canceled DRAGON BOATING and we're gona do KICKBOXING!!!! - -!?!??!
one of the trainers from the camp came yesterday and described the 'kickboxing activity',
they're gona teach us moves, and we'll see which class's has the stamina to hold the longest..
although he kept the details to himself,
we knew, its gona be some ACES DAY WORKOUT TILL YOU DROP thingy - -
do you really think they wld risk our 'lives'.. for a 4hr REAL kick boxing match?!
and just the diff classes not sticking to one of the 2places, sentosa or eastcoast, their already panicking like crazy baboons - -
just great!
gracia reminded us that we're paying 90$ for this..
for what?
for the food, the 2 nights of sleep over, and aces day workout.
NINETY DOLLARS..
just really it'll be worth it, [even though its not worth it alr] ~_~
as the 'very little' time left to bond in this last year wld be priceless~
anws, i got to know more abt myself!
and i DEFFINATELY DIDNT WATCH STAR TREK RERUNS!
didnt even watch star trek in the first place! D:
You Are 86% Thankful
You're an incredibly thankful person, and everyone around you feels very appreciated.
You inspire people to be more optimistic, forgiving, and grateful.
Your Life is 82% Perfect
You truly have the perfect life. And you probably feel like the luckiest person in the world.
You have a great career, family, and personal life. You have it going on!
You Are 16% Nerdy
You are definitely not nerdy - in fact, you probably don't know any nerds.
You probably care a little too much about your image. No one will know if you secretly watch Star Trek reruns!
You Are Somewhat Mature
You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart.
While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.
You Sometimes Hold a Grudge
You aren't exactly vengeful, but you're not going to forget when someone wrongs you.
And while you'll forgive the small things, you don't hand out too many second chances to people who really screw up.